Category: Personal

Today I turn 33 years old. It’s a spur of the moment and “oh no I forgot to blog” kind of post, so I’ve included a random photo of me reading to my two boys.

This year it’s even less special because I’m actually going to work today. I think it’s the first time in 10 years that I’m working on my birthday. I can’t take the day off because a project is going live today and I need to be around in case there’s problems.

I always like to look back at what I wrote last year. When I turned 32 I was in a vegetarian zone, so I skipped KFC but I think I’ll have my birthday KFC today.

Things didn’t get off to a good start. Last night Daryl was playing with our dining chair when he lost his grip and the chair fell on his toe.

Now he has a bruise under his big toe nail the size of a bubble tea pearl (in diameter, not in volume). This morning he was walking fine but he limped a little when wearing his shoes.

Heart feel so pain. He just wouldn’t listen because just minutes before I was telling him to stop. Sign this boy likes to learn the hard way.

Anyway today just feels like any normal day. My phone is a little busier with birthday greetings but that’s it.

Not that I am complaining, because I don’t like being the centre of attention anyway.

Aging

How does it feel to be 33 years old? Not very well I’m afraid.

I’m always feeling sick due to one problem or another.

I really need to restart some sort of exercise routine. Right now it’s all rather ad-hoc. I blame the kids haha.

Wish

My birthday wish is for my kids to be obedient so they don’t hurt themselves.

For them to understand the world is dangerous, for them to understand we don’t want them to get hurt when we say “No”.

Sometimes I feel like I’m talking to the wall. I talk to Rachel or Daryl and they just ignore me.

That makes me furious sometimes, even more so when they do get hurt.

Sometimes I wish I had a Barney or Cookie Monster suit. Maybe they would listen to them.

These past few days I’ve been feeling I’ve done nothing to deserve what I have today.

It seems I was fortunate to be at the right place at the right time.

Getting into the right company, finding the right career, meeting Poey Chin and having my children.

Someone has been watching over me my entire life, and I owe so much to my parents for always being there.

I’m thankful for my family, for my health and being able to make a living.

My greatest fear is that all this will be taken away from me. Either through force, my own stupidity or by divine intervention.

Is it normal that I lie awake at night fearing that I will lose everything?

 

Happy New Year! Some believe this is the final new year for humanity.

Anyway just want to wish all of you a very Happy New Year again. May all your wishes come true.

Toward the end of last year I was spending a lot of time thinking about my new years resolution.

At one of our company meetings, the HR Vice President shared this video, and it has some very useful reminders about achieving success and greatness:

This is the link if you can’t view the embedded video.

I have this list of life goals. I won’t share the details here, but I can tell you there are 15 things I wanted to achieve by the year 2015.

After viewing this video, I realize I need to narrow that list to just one thing.

I have a few choices and I haven’t decided what my “focus” will be.

Choosing just one thing is more difficult that you would imagine.

First of all, as a Christian you would be expected to choose God as your one thing.

As a husband and father you would be expected to choose your family as your one thing.

As a valuable employee, you are expected to choose your company, cost savings or profits as your one thing.

Choosing anything else would make me seem sinful, or selfish, or a bad “team player”.

But I’m going to choose something else anyway. Something I am passionate about.

Now, you ask me. What about all my other priorities in life? Do I abandon them?

Definitely not! I am still a husband, father, and employee. But in my spare time, this is what I will be pursuing.

And if you think about it, this goal of mine does not mean excluding everything else. Other areas of my life can be aligned along the same path.

My hope is I can do much more with the single focus. Then next year I can move on to other things.

I’m feeling really excited about this.

Hope you have a great year.

Photo by: Billy Alexander