40 Years Old Today

It’s really scary how time is passing so quickly. In my mind I’m always thinking I’m living in my teens or twenties.

I guess some of the habits or life lessons I’ve picked up from that time are still with me. I don’t know if anyone else is like this, but at random times of the day I would have flashbacks and memories of my youth.

Today I reach a milestone where it’s traditionally the middle point of my life. Reflecting on this, I can sum it all as just feeling very fortunate and #blessed ( #StillIRise #GetInThereLewis ).

I’m happy that life seems to be quite stable at the moment. The kids are growing, my job is good, and financially we’re not too bad.

Of course I want to be more richer, to be more successful, to have genius talented children. But then I remember, what little things I have is already so much better than others who may not even have the basic comforts of life. Because of this I must learn to appreciate what I have been blessed with.

I feel so blessed to have parents, sister, aunties and uncles who have cared for me all my life, and who are still caring for me.

My parents and aunties

I feel blessed I have friends who like me for who I am.

I feel blessed for having a career doing what I love. In the last 20 years there are so many people who have mentored me, given me a chance (and many second chances!), and supported me. Not to mention all my teachers and pastors who educated me and got me ready for life. I won’t be where I am without all these people. I will never forget them.

I feel blessed for having a wonderful wife and three healthy children. Poey Chin is so patient with me, I’m so fortunate she’s my wife. She does so much for me and the children.

Group photo after a meal. See the misty clouds in Kota Tinggi Kemuning

Rachel, Daryl and Caleb, everything I have and all I will do will be for the three of you. You might not appreciate any of it now but I hope you realize this when you grow older.

As I reach 40, I feel very sad and fearful when I see my parents and relatives aging. I am also aware that I am getting to an age where I start getting into certain high risk health categories.

I wish it would be possible to become immortal so I would never have to be apart from my parents and children. But that is impossible for now, so I’ll try to cherish every moment.

I look forward to the next half of life. It will get more challenging but I’m confident I can get through it with the love and support of my family.

Ok so it’s been 3.5 years…

I don’t suppose I have any readers left, but I do enjoy reading back the last 13 years of blog posts, and enjoy the memories they bring me. So I decided I should continue recording my memories here.

Let’s see if I can keep it up this time round.

I have some maintenance and cleanup to do for this blog, mostly to remove some old content to save some server disk space.

Here’s a quick preview:

Rainbows

I’ve been privately going through some times of uncertainty in the past few weeks. Change is uncomfortable, and I can’t make up my mind. I’m not sure about the path ahead. I don’t know if I’m making the right decision.

But I have been coming across rainbows and somehow it’s a bit comforting.

Here’s a photo of a rainbow in the sky. I saw this near my office one evening.

Here’s another picture. If I reach the office early, the morning sun is refracted through the office glass door, casting these rainbow colours on the wall.

I like this photo. The colours really contrast with the grey wall.

Finally I came across a third rainbow while visiting the KL Bird Park.

The rainbow is at the base of the waterfall.

I can’t explain why rainbows are comforting. Maybe it’s some memory of the story of Noah. The rainbow was actually a covenant between God and Noah not to flood the earth to kill everyone again. Kind of scary if you think about it (the part where everyone dies). But Sunday School teachers always use the story to talk about God’s promises and I think that’s the association I have in my mind.

Maybe it’s the colours of the different wavelengths of light. Always the same sequence. Consistent. Rainbows are really beautiful to look at.